Feels Bad

It was make me sad for a week, my bestfriend told me that I shouldn’t like this. I wanna cry, it brokes my heart too much. She said that everything will be alright, but I’m in shock. And for today I believe that what my bestfriend said is going to happen. Why? I believe in love, actually. And now like love is a some of shit that talked by people who didn’t know the feels are. My lover was broke my heart. You know how it feels? It feels like you were flying and then your wings suddenly gone when you are in the right above the gorge. Feels like your blood is out but nothing, your half soul do that. How can I believe this?

It’s not easy like when you talk it. I can’t sleep, I didn’t feel any taste when eat. My body feels sick, my maag is like laughing at me. Like Taylor Swift said, “All you had to do was stay”. Shit man why I still in this fucking moment, it’s not easy like ‘you’ did. And I wanna say thanks to my friend T and H that always support me no matter who I am from senior high school until now. Love you both stupid friends, let me laugh for a second. Haha, that’s enough for laugh. Is my laugh at there ‘haha’ need a second? Do you understand what I talking about? Please don’t judge me haha, no not really, people judge me years ago, it feels nothing for me.